damn it :(

I’m really confused right now. I just can’t figure out what is right and wrong. Things are driving me crazy. 

I know life has always offered choices, and I don’t want to choose “no choice”. Over a thousands times, I already thought about that. But still, it makes my world spin faster. I still don’t know what to do, I am afraid to take a step in which I will just regret at the end. 

I just can’t explain how things are going on. Maybe it’s part of growing up. But not this much. 

Sleepless nights are now on. Those things bothers me a lot.

Hope I can find the right answers as soon as posible

Vague times

I was much excited this day. Maybe there are some reasons behind it. But it was too public here to let me tell the reason

I go to school today, even there’s no classes, but we have a practice. But Nickole sent a group message to me about it, that only the main characters are needed there. But I still did go there. Haha. Maybe I’m a hard-headed, but there were reasons behind it.

I didn’t enter the campus. I don’t want to experience hard time just for me to get out of there. Haha. I just decided to stay outside with Mark Dedal. And also Samantha. And after a while, Gilbee come with us. After several minutes, Mark Ortiz arrived. We stopped him to enter the campus. We told him the consequences of it. Haha. Nickole’s mom was also with us. She was actually waiting for ate Nikki. She told me that, Mark Ortiz looks like Joseph. Waah~ And we had some topics. Like, she invited me at KC’s birthday at Laguna. And somethings that are involved with Ibong Adarna. When she left, they decided to play dota :O we did come with them. Yeaa. Actually I got some pictures of Mark Ortiz playing. Just check my FS account about it. 

We did go to SM.  We just wandered there. Haha.

When I got home, I go online, and heyy.. ZitrO was already my friend in Y!M, and he’s actually online :”>

I think I am obsessed

Values Education. Waah~ Summative test. And yo! I’m not yet reviewing for it. Haha. But hopefully I answered it all.

Science was a boring period again. Haayy..

I was afraid to enter my Home Economics class, I think it is because I am not yet done with my project. But hell~ another wrong impression again. It was the happiest period in this day. Because zitrO was there, and he was asking me to help him in his project But hayy. He was with his crush. I guess. Haha. But I think he was really irritated with me. And I think he disliked me But anyway, I think both of us had a great time a while ago. I am almost beside him, and he was there, having a good time with I guess his crush. Katrina and him was talking about me. Haha.

 English, I left my book. And hell~ I got my assignment there :O  But we took first our last quiz for my freshmen year  

AP was also a great time. Haha. We just did our project planning And indeed, he was one of my groupmates Even though I didn’t have such a great time with him. I was still happy because i mingled with Janica  

Computer period wasn’t good enough. But hey~ he was just at the left front side of me =)) I can see him easily. Haha. 

basketball~

I didn’t really want to go to school today. But it was really needed ) I was forced to go to school because term exams will be very soon. I must not miss my class. Haha.

Another reason why I don’t want to go to school because of basketball. Haha. Obviously I am not inclined in this sport. Maybe it isn’t really for me, and of course for a girl like me. Haha. That’s why I am irratated. Of course, boys really like this sport. Haha.

Woa~ Monday is the day today right? Assemblyy!! IIA will lead us this morning. Haha.

And hey PE is our first subject. And I think I got a wrong impression in basketball. Really wrong. I did enjoy. And hey, when zitrO shoots the ball into the ring, I also shoot mine ) And Of course, during our PE time, it was the break time of the gradeschool students. Indeed they really distracts us. Uhh~ Especially the grade6 boys. x( I got this kilig feeling with zitrO a while ago again )

Sundaay

He wasn’t there. Haha. 

Kevin had told me a secret. He told me he was Superman :O Hahaha. I found my long lost Superman. =))

In the KNC room, we had a lot of fun. Yeaa~ I will surely miss this times Their laughs and giggles, the hard-headed kiddos there. Hope when I’m gone, they can still remember, though I am a silent girl there.

Sis Rachel held my hand. Oh~ :O I love her so much She was really friendly, and she even look nice. She’s like a cat. )

Welcome to the teen world =D

Wee~ Happy 13th birthday Mark Edison =) 

Last stop was at the MPH2. Uhh~ I hate there. It was so boring there and my eyes are giving up. Yes! While kuya “I forgot his name” (from UP)  was discussing, My eyes are dropping =)) I can’t take that anymore… And all he was talking about was constellations which is related to Science, and science is the subject I hate the most. Plus!! I was tired and hungry. Aww And we had an activity that memorization skills should be involved. That’s why my memorization skills weren’t working that time.

After at our last stop, we assembled in the Open Court. We assembled there for our midnight snack. But I won’t consider it as a midnight snack, it is because it was already past 1am. Haha. And while 1E and 1D are lining up for their snack, Ms. Myra get the mic and greeted Mark Edison =D

After we ate, we prepare to sleep, but me and Bam2x decided not to. We saw different faces, that’s not unusual for the both of us. But I didn’t got scared, but I want to sleep. Haha. 

I saaaw Jupiter =) Except for its rings It was small when viewed in the telescope, but incredibly amazing =) And I didn’t grab the chance to see the Mars

After that, we had our exercise and our section was the best follower. Haha. The reward for that was we were the first class to line up to take our breakfast. Many didn’t liked the food, but I decided to ate all my foods in my plate

When I got home, what I did first was to check my e-mails and my social networking accounts And  I got surprised when I took a nap on the top of our laptop. Haha. I transfer to bed and I woke up at 5pm. And hey, Jeanne called our telephone. Hehe.

There was a shocking news I knew today. It was that Francis Magalona was not anymore breathing

I wasn’t really excited

This morning, I woke up so early yet I didn’t open the computer and check for my e-mails. Haha. I think I was just so busy preparing my things for the overnight activity later. It is just because I didn’t prepare my things last night, I wasn’t just excited about it. I think it is because I hate Science. Eeer~

The CL had their first Friday mass. ZitrO was late in coming up, so he was trapped in the classroom. His 20 pesos fell from his pocket and we got it. He can’t get out and get his 20 pesos without him, permiting us to take a picture of him. Haha. And yes. It was successful. We got a picture of him. Haha. Since we, VE students,  were not yet instructed to go down to the MMC 1 or 2, we decided to take pictures for the profile of IC. But we were effin bored there, so we get they get the things of zitrO and take pictures of it. And hey, I got a picture of me holding his book =))Kilig~

When Ms. Myra got in the classroom, we immediately hide the camera. Haha. And damn. We were seperated from the other levels in the Highschool department. So we were just in the classroom. And hell~ We will share something to the group. Aaww~ that’s one of my weaknesses. I don’t know how to express myself thru talking. But hey, I survived it. Haha.

 Today is I guess the commentary writing for the month of February. And hell, I don’t have my notebook And during the SRLP it’s my first time to not to read a book. The book was effin so boring. eer~

During AP, Sir Chris went between me and nickole. He was asking for our late assignment. Haha. Since Nickole left it, we just watch the assignment of IB. Shame on us. Haha. And during Filipino, we just have our practice. It was so hot outside, and I didn’t even work =))

And English class was on. I was selected as a leader. uhh~ Haha.

And during Interest club, we just tke it as a free time. Hahaha. And of course make some fun with buttgirl =))

And yo~ our overnight activity was on. We took some orientation. And hell~ It was sooo boring. Haha. Science all over again.. It pisses me off.

I was just so happy about our first stop, it was in the open court. We lie down there, and watch for the stars. And the moon looks so nice at the binoculars. And I found a constellation, forming letter Z. Oh men~ I was really happy about it. I did really enjoy watching the stars. Haha. So relaxing.

The second stop was the film watching. Hell~ It was so boring. We have watched that already, so I guess no one was interested about it. Haha.

The third stop is in the parking lot. We used the telescope. Yehey! And I saw the moon. And the double stars and of course the Saturn Wee~ Saturn looks so cool. I love it. And while we were lining up there, zitrO talked to me =) We shared some amazing and horrible stories. Haha. He even got scared. :O

And the fourth stop in the computer lab of gs. Ms. Lisette was there. Wee~ me and onyx actually shared chair. Haha. And there, I watched out for the clock to strike for 12midnight. And hey~ I greeted him exactly 12 )

Is it real or just another lie?

It’s not normal for him to be good at someone. Uhmm~ But Why is he acting like that to me? Does it mean something? Is he irratated to me? Hayy~ Hope he’s not.. Maybe he just shy or something. Hehe. 

Hope I can be close with him. Haay~ I want to grab the chance this friday night. Wee~ 

Today is five =D

Wee~

I’ve been waiting for this date to pop up. It’s Ms. Liset’s birthday. I am really excited to greet her.

I greeted her after our science subject. Recess. . I did went to the faculty, and asked for her. And when I saw her, I hand her my chocolate and greeted her a happy birthday. Indeed she hold my hand =)  I miss her so muuuch~

She even told me something about my brother. Hehe. And nickole, also liked her. She is really cool~

After that, we went downstairs. And Cristelle asked us, something about “PDA”. Oh~ We don’t really know something about it, until we search some facts. Indeed, we have one student who was interviewed about it. Hayy~ 

 Then A.P, it was just a period of project making. Argh~ why did I brought my effin book.. And zitrO is my groupmate. wee~ And that time, I got Gordon’s hanky. Nickole was jealous for the both of us =)) She also said that zitrO was looking at us. Hahaha~

During english, we have a grouping, and hey, instead of practicing, we just play there at the back =)) 

Filipino time, We did our project, and Jeanne was my “taga-paypay”. Haha. And I think it was almost end of our Filipino subject, we were called to be interview in the Guidance office. And hey, We were interviewed one by one. Oh~ A private interview. And I am the first one. And after I was interviewed, I just lie down there. =))  And we talk about something about that was interviewed to us. Hahaha~ It’s not private anymore =)) And when we got up, we were 30 minutes late in our math subject, and indeed they are starting their seatwork =DDBut I passe. Whew~

This dismissal, Capa called me, and I talked to them. Hehehe. I was fetched by my mother today. Wee~ I miss being fetch. Hehe.

Walking is a good exercise

Yehey~

He did talk to me. He even asked me to let him borrow my ballpen =)) I even touched his back. Hahaha~ So keeliig But of course, I need to deny it to him. Many would be affected, some may be negative, but surely, many would be happy about it.

This dismissal, we walked from our school to 7-11 and we ate there. After that, we walked up to Jollibee Molino. Near RFC. And Patricia is my companion. I did knew a lot from her, and I also shared a lot to her. Hehe. While we’re walking outside the football field, I passed by, by doraemon’s dad. Hehehe. I was really happy about it =) I miss smiling at his dad.

Pathetic bitch~

Pathetic bitch!

Hey~ You’re pissing me off. Don’t act as if he likes you back. How dare you talk craps about me, even if you don’t really know something about me. You look so ridiculous. Maybe you just have a kilometer thick of face. I barely admit it, he is not mine, of course IMPOSSIBLY YOURS~ >:) Maybe we both like each other, please don’t be a dam for the both of us, because you have any right to be >:P I need to stay away from him, just because of you bitch. But if my temper gets overload, huh! I’m telling you bitch, better get your mom and hide behind her.

 Bitch, I am not asking you to stop talking lies about me. You’re making me famous, and that’s a compliment for me. Hahaha. You do really look like a bitch when you’re doing that kind of shit. You’re very desperate to have him. And you, yes you bitch, do really look like a bitch because you’re following after him. You are really desperate. Argh~

 And by the way, your friend and your unreachable dream guy, have also a mutual understanding before, which means, you also talk shits behind her back? Oh. How pathetic~ You are really deperate to have him. You can have him by the way, because we are not committed to each other, and if he will court you =)) Or you have a option, you can court him. Hahaha~ Grab him, specially now, summer will be on.You can lock him with all your love, but you will never be locked by his love >:P

 Take care Bitch~

You got the wrong enemy.  You don’t know me. Better back-off!

And if you want to talk to me, oh~ I am willing to waste my time to talk to a pathetic bitch like you. Just approach me, but don’t expect that I won’t embarass you >:)I will let you see the evil side of mine.

To summarize this up : GO TO HELL~ YOU GOT A WRONG ENEMY, PATHETIC DESPERATE BITCH.!

PS: If you can’t understand this, I can write a tagalog version of this =)) Or I can let you borrow, or have my english-tagalog dictionary. Hahaha.

March three~

Waah~

I don’t know if I will call it a good or a bad day for me.

Heey~ guess what? I woke up 4am today and I did not go online this morning. It’s a miracle =)) I just spend my time looking at the mirror. Hahaha

And this day, the grade 6 students are taking their mock test today. And I don’t give a damn care. I just want to shaare. Hahaha.

And last homeroom morning, our adviser checked on our nails. And hey I have a very long nails. Haha~

And a very good thing happened this morning, we didn’t take our Summative test in Values Education. Hahaha~ Because I didn’t review last night. I was really tired yesterday. And this Science, we just watch a movie about the outer planets, well it should be the inner planets, but unfortunately the movie had technical problems. 

And this Home Economics period, I wasn’t able to finish my zipper. Hahaha. And we were asked to work outside the H.E. Lab. And I was so happy that time, because zitrO was also there. And he was asking me to help him. Hahaha. Kileeg~

During our english time, we did took our Quiz 4. And yea~ I got perfect, even I had a hard time understanding the “If clauses”. Hahaha~ good for me right?

And yess~ it was our lunch time. Instead of studying for our Summative in Computer, we did talked about “green” things. Eeew :-& haha

And hell~ I just got 20 in our Online Summative test in Computer. Hayy.

Happy birthday ate Nikki "twin"

March three is the day today. And today, my twin is celebrating her birthday. Yehey~  She bought me a Dutch Choco Twist last reces. Waa~  I did appreciate it. Haha

Well. It’s a very good day for her, because her crush greeted her, and sang a “happy birthday song” for her. Hahaha. How sweet They said, her crush looks very funny that time. They were bursting into laugh that time >:) 

I miss my grade 6 days

I miss having a locker, and just bringing my damn diary from our house to school and from school to our house. I also miss wrting Eldine in almost every page of my book and as well in my notebook. 

 I miss my grade 6 friends. Especially those who did abig change in my life. I won’t really regret knowing you guys. They help me realize things that I can’t really understand what are they really meant for.

I won’t regret knowing you guys. You all helped something to me. Hayy~ Hope we could have reunion, malling could do, all I want is an extension of our grade 6 life =) 

I miss you bhez, mommy, katie, fatima, renzo, lambert, shaira, mark, and all of you grade6A students, batch 2007-2008. Hope you are all doing fine =) I much miss you guys.

I wanna get back to the old days

I still miss the memories we spent. All the giggles we made, and the talks we shared. I can’t believe that I still hold for him. I want to get back to my days were I was with him. If I can just make a miracle, then I will. 

I feel like everything had change. If before, he teases me, now he won’t. He keeps silent, that I don’t know why. There are times that he would look at me, but can’t he talk to me? Why did everything change? Is it my fault?

Even her sister is not texting me anymore. It feels like I am so invisible. I want to burst out, but I just can’t. I know there will be affected If I did this such foolish thing.

It’s so ridiculous. I just didn’t felt it at first. I just realized it when I lost everything that connects us together.  Hayy. I think it was October or November since we last talked to each other. But it was last February 1, when I last heard his golden voice. 

I just want to get back to our old days. I much regret having this kind of situation. But at least, I’d learn something from it.